I want to start by saying thank you to everyone who reached out after the blog I wrote in January on my battle with anxiety. Literally hundreds of you and it touched me in ways I can’t describe.
In the days following, I decided I couldn’t sit around feeling sorry for myself anymore and that I needed to take a step in a positive direction. So I took a few steps and ended up at the North Huron Recreation Department where I met with Melissa, Carol and Julia.
They told me that the step I had taken to get there was a good one, but there would be many … many … … MANY more steps … and that I would be lifting some things too. I cried a little, but they just smiled and promised me I would be okay 🙂 I’m happy to report that so far, they’re right. I might even be a little better than okay.
I met for the first time with my trainer, Julia, on February 14th. She laid out a program for me and started showing me how to complete the various exercises without physically hurting my body … or my ego, which I appreciated.
I’m not a big believer in numbers per se, but I’ll tell you I was about 25-30 pounds heavier than I know I feel good at. I’m down 10 as of this writing and feeling good about that.
It’s a combo of the exercise and eating a little healthier. My Achilles heel when it comes to food is chips and I’m not going to lie, I still crave them and even had some a couple times this month. But, there’s nothing in me that wants to toss hard work away because of self indulgence. I’m too competitive for that.
I hadn’t given this much thought prior but I’ve also noticed an amazing correlation between what I eat and how well I perform. I’m sure that seems like a dumb thing to say to anyone who takes an interest in their health at all, but it was an aha moment for me, the day I realized that better fuel led to better results. #duh
I’m told that at my age, I’ll have a harder time building muscle however, I have made some gains in the numbers I’m able to lift, crunch and cry through.
I feel lighter, not as in weight but just overall and I’m catching my wind better.
Through large parts of the winter months, I was experiencing some nasty anxiety fueled adrenaline rushes. They’ve disappeared and I feel like my body is dealing better with stress.
It took some practice, but I’m really enjoying running on the treadmill lately and did 5k in just over 30 minutes this past Monday, which to be honest, surprised the hell out of me.
Not sure why, but the more fit I get, the easier I perspire. Is that a thing?
I knew I was making progress, when one day while running, a drop of sweat rolled down my temple. It was an odd, feeling of satisfaction and then immediate horror as I tried to wipe it away and poked my finger in my eye! I stumbled, causing my earbuds to yank my phone from it’s perch. By some miracle, I was able to stick a perfect landing and end up standing beside the treadmill, phone unharmed at my feet … my left eye squinting.
So, I feel better. I’m the hitting the gym 4-5 times each week. I’m playing badminton on Thursday evenings and loving it. I’ve been invited to join a ball team too and can’t wait for that to happen this summer.
Thanks Julia and the North Huron Rec Dept. for the encouragement and the laughs. I’m having fun and feeling stronger everyday!